回味

你我这样关系
也算一种默契
你不想聊的
我不会提
我不要给你有压力
只要你开心
偶尔一点小情绪
我自己抚平

i wish to know

i smell sth fishy..
i sense sth different..
i dun feel the same from you again..
it's not like what we've done or said before..
is it fading away..

...........

sorry..
i know i'm very hard to please..
distance is making our relationship even harder to survive..
i just hope tat we can make it through..

Speed writing exercise in class

Just some thoughts to be shared here. This piece of writting is taken from my weekly writing exercise in class. My lecturer Edwin will play a piece, or a few pieces of music and we have to write a piece of writing. No thinkings or talkings are allowed during that period of time. We are supposed to write about anything that comes to mind.

This week, we were asked to write about one of the sad moments in life. and this is what i've thought of. This is long, spare some time to read it, if you dun mind. I posted it here, because it is relevant to you people. People that i love. <3

Happy reading:

People experience different kinds of sad moments in lives, from the death of the closest ones, to the lose of education, being kicked out from school, not having enough to eat, etc.

Well for me, the most important thing is to know how to fall, and get up again. Not giving up your life is an important lesson to learn, yet, it always appears to be really difficult at times.

I guess one of my saddest moments was the few months after high-school. I have a gang of really close high school friends. I only get to know them when i moved to Kuala Lumpur from another state in Malaysia, that was when i was 16.

The time we spent together in high school was merely two years. It is definitely not a short period, but not too long either.

I remember vividly when we have all finished our final exam, and done with high school. During that period, due to some reasons, we seldom meet up again. Most of us were busy doing part-time jobs to fill up the three-month holidays before our result is released.

We were all too busy to keep in touch. And one night, i was sitting in my room alone, reading through the autograph book that i have, with writings and words from my fellow friends before we graduated from high school.

Reading through those words has caused so much pain as i feel like things were not the same anymore. I missed the moments we studied together, been to dancing classes, going to night market, wandering around at the basketball court, fooling with teachers and plenty of other memories. I feel that things have changed.

Then daddy walked into my room, seeing me crying. He asked why, and i told him what i felt. He said: "silly girl, people walk in and out. some might stay, some might not. You'll have to learn to let go." He hugged me in the arms, and gave me comfort.

What daddy said is true, but i'm glad that after the result is released, we've all stopped working and gone back to normal. We called each other out and have gatherings so often. Things have gone back to the beginning. We are close once again.

And it has been 4 years since we graduated from the high school. Eventhough i'm in Perth now, we still keep closely in touch. The day i left malaysia, i have all my closest ones at the airport to send me off. Once again it hurted me so much to have to leave my family and friends, but i know it's a process of growing up. Our friendship will always stay strong and that is my faith.

I'm really glad to have this group of friends, who give me comfort and shelter when i need them the most, to share my life's ups and downs throughout these 6 years. I am fully blessed and i hope we will all appreciate our friendship, and not giving up on each other under any circumstances.

Speaking about closeness, I'm really feeling it when i went back home for two weeks couples of months ago during the semester break. I always thought being outside, studying and living alone, is the best thing that could ever happen for me. I thought being independent is good, yet i ignore the fact of how much my family is needig me.

Going back this time i realise my importance. Dad and Mom have been missing me so much. And i got the return air-tickets as my birthday present for my 21st birthday. I guess they want to see me very much. This time, i spent lots of times with them. I drive my little bro to and back from school. I cooked for my family, watched television programmes with them, talked to them, etc. I might be a grown up now, but deep inside, i'm always still a little child to them. I love it when i get really close with my family, i feel like i'm the gem and always being well taken care of. Again, i know i'm deeply blessed for having such a lovely family. A father who is not strict at all and willing to share thoughts with me, a mother who is lovely with young and modern thinking, and most of all a brother who is ALREADY A GROWN UP but still lives like a baby.

I am a happy little girl, blessed with great family and friends. Some people might complain about their lives a lot. They are sad of the things that they don't have in life. For me, being happy is more than easy. "Appreciate" is all the it takes.

Learn to appreciate, and things will appear to be more beautiful. =) Try it.

the new rules in the internet!

my lecturer showed me this in class today.
i think shud b interesting enuf to share. =)

How to Behave : The New Rules
(Wired magazine, August 09)

■If your call drops, call back
■Don’t Google-stalk before a first date
■Texting is OK while in the company of others
■Feel free to bittorrent
■Never broadcast your relationship status
■Don’t lie with your Facebook photo
■Balance your media diet

1hr gaming
1.25h social networking
0.75h microblogging
3.5h entertainment
2.5h news

■Online conversations are not all about you
■Friend your boss, but not your boss’ boss. Follow them both on Twitter.
■On Facebook, ignore your Ex.
■Ditch the headset.
■Choose the right ringtone
■Don’t BLOG or Tweet anything that has more than half a million hits.
■Delete unwanted posts from your Facebook wall.
■Meet online friends in the real world (Beware : it will be weird)
■Leave your Wi-fi open.*
■Seek out your co-workers on Facebook
■Be mindful of your personal space
■There’s no such thing as too many friends
■You can reinvent yourself online
■Don’t hesitate to haggle on Craigslist.*
■Don’t work all the time – you’ll live to regret it
■Never unfollow someone just because they unfollowed you
*mainly USA.

im the hardest girl to please.

to b the man of my life is not easy.
but he does it really well. =)
thanks bie!

童话

以前自以为找到的幸福，
结果是笑话。。。

这次自以为找到的幸福，
我希望是童话。。。

人很善变，
现在说很喜欢你，
过些日子可能就把你给忘了。。

爱情不可靠，
但我仍想深深的再相信一次，
往日的罗曼史，
败了，伤了，痛了，也该忘了。。

我只想珍惜现在，
现在眼前的你，
我认为可以给我幸福的你，
给我童话的你，让我靠，让我依赖的你。。 =）

nothing's gonna change my love for you

dearie, this is dedicated to you.
somehow i find the lyrics really encouraging,
n i feel like it's writing bout us. =)



Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You:

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

tabooooo...

in any relationships,
there are always things that should b avoided..
especially some old memories..
tat u once shared with those previous special ones..

i know us girls hate to know things bout those pasts..
things tat our guys once had with other girls..
things tat other girls can do better than us..
n we like to compare too..
i guess the kiasu-ness not just lies within singaporeans..
it lies within every girl too..
or in fact.. including the guys..

i know guys wont like to know much about those pasts too..
i know too, that wat is important is the future,
not the past..
but human beings are always sensitive..
or blame the low self esteem..

whatever it is,
from now on i need to stay focus..
target on things tat i wan,
throw away things tat i dun wan..
what she can do, or they can do,
im gona do it even better.
for im anything, but ordinary. =)






n im....








extremely kia-su....

homesick..

called up daddy just now..
i guess hes busy at work..
he asked me wats up..
n i said: nth, just wana hear ur voice.

n da whole morning i've been missing my didi.
n mommy =(

i wana go home.