somewhere i belong

a lil bit depressed again.
mayb not to say depressed,
but.. a lil blue perhaps.

i know i will only hav few more months here,
then im off to australia.
i wish i can spend time with all of u,
since i hav never reli join u all for outings,
n yet, again, the same thing happen.

i've always struggled between church and frens.
not once or twice,
but countless times.
sumtimes i wish to just give up a lil time to church,
n spend it with my beloved frens,
but in da end i owex end up choosing church n not frens.
it's the responsibilities, n the guilt. i just cant.
im sorry.

n a lot of times when i struggle to choose..
in da end i choose sth out of responsibilities..
not necessarily sth tat i like.
not to say being forced,
it's more like i hav no other options.

i do hope to spend time with u all.
in fact, if it is one week earlier or later,
then definitely i'll b able to make it..
but, oh well. =( im sorry gals.