born to try

i know im a lil confused most of da time.
yet still owex tryin to compromise.
n to work things out.
but if we ever say we'll never b together.
n we ended with kiss gudbye.
da only thing i can do is to get rid of da blues..
n wish for the best of u..

untitled.

如果明知道结局是失去。。。
会不会因为害怕失去的痛苦，
而选择停止付出。。。

no past. no future. no problems.

i hav a lot to write.
but nowhere to start.
urgh. not so happy.

tagged

Starting time:
• 3.15pm

Name:
• jac

Shoe size:
• 5

What are you wearing right now?
• Pyjamas

Where do you live?
• KL

Favorite Number/s
1 3 6 9

Favorite Drinks:
• skyjuice

Favorite Months:
• june december

Have You Ever……
Been in a bath tub:
• yes

Swam in the ocean:
• yes

Fallen asleep in school:
• all the time

Broken someone’s heart:
• yes

Fell off your chair:
• cant remember so i assume, no.

Saved e-mails:
• yes

What is……
Your room like:
• super messy

What’s right beside you?
• hp

What is the last thing you ate?
• tiramisu choc

Ever Had……
Chicken pox:
• yes, when i was 5 or 6

Sore throat:
• yes

Stitches:
• nope

Broken nose:
• never n i dun wan it

Do You……
Believe in love at first sight?
• never

Like picnics:?
• very much. but i prefer to participate than to organize

Who……
Who was the last person you danced with?
• alone.

Who last made you smile?
• my bie.

Who did you last yell at?
• my brother.

Final Questions……
Hate someone in your family?
• heart everyone.

Diamond or pearl?
• diamond!

Are you the Eldest?
• yes

Today did you……
Talk to someone you like?
• Yeah

Kiss anyone?
• yes, thru da phone

Get sick?
• nope

Talked to an ex:
• nope

Miss someone:
• very much

Last person who……
You talked to on the phone?
• my bie

Have a crush on someone:?
• mm...

What books are you reading right now?
• some boring books

Best feeling in the world:
• to b with THE one.

Future kids names?
• no idea~

Do you Sleep with stuffed animals?
• no

What’s under your bed?
• dust~

Favorite locations:
• beaches

Danced a slow dance with someone you didn’t even like?
• never

Who do you really hate?
• i hate no one. perhaps just dislike some people.

Ever liked someone you didn’t have a chance with?
• always

You lonely right now?
• not really

What time is it now?
• 3.21pm

I Tag….

no one for me to tag!!!!!

another dilemma.

i feel like i owex make things complicated.
i din wan to hurt anyone at first.
but now it seems like wateva decisions tat i make,
at least one side will be hurted...
i just wonder if there is any solutions for the best of them all.
one is the one who i seriously luv in the past.
n another one is the one who pulls me out from the trap
n colours up my life again.
both i appreciate.
maybe i should just stick to the first decision.
forget about the past.
n move on with my new life.
but the memories will b ter, always.
n hopefully they wont just fade.

new light.

the past week has been a lil bit too dramatic..
first i sent the email.
then a lil bit of arguments.
followed by endless calls n sms which i refused to ans or reply.
n the sudden visit early in the morning.
the talks n tears in the car.
n surprisingly the nice hang out on friday nite.
with continuous talks in da phone everyday.

oh well, tat's the end of it.
from the 1st day i decided to luv,
until the last day i decided to walk away.
sadness.
i never expected myself to b the one to walk away.
n the one who refuse a turn back.
there's certainly no 2nd chance.
i guess that's enough.
of all the things tat i've been through.
enough. i've learnt n grown; gained and lose.
that's it.
i never regret for all the things i've done.
neither do i regret loving u tat much.
the memories r to be kept. n treasured.
for they wont grow, anymore.

i closed the door. n i opened another one.
perhaps, for another him.
im not sure wat i hav in mind now.
i dun wan to jump to the conclusion too fast either.
i just hope im making some right decisions.
i hope these decisions wont bring me or anyone bad effects.
i just wan to be happy.

all about love.

saw tis in an unknown person's blog. interesting. =)

当爱从身边渐走渐远，错过的也许并不是他这个人，而是你一生的幸福。
　　缘份天注定，有缘无份，或无缘有份，都是一种心痛。
　　人，一生可以错过很多东西，名利，地位，唯一不能让它跑掉的是你今生的幸福，下半生的依靠。
　　爱，可以很简单，也可以很复杂。
　　心，可以让它完整，也可让它破碎。最大的遗憾是无法再让它恢复原状。
　　你，曾经是我的最爱，可是，将来，你只会是我美好的回忆。无法忘掉的过去。
　　我，只是你爱过的多个人之一，然而，你的内心，却留有一份属于我的痕迹。无法抹掉。
　　有时没有选择，是一种莫大的幸福。


你知道不知道,思念一个人的滋味,
心房就象长满了衰草,风一拂过,哗哗的颤响,
回荡着你的名字;

你知道不知道,思念一个人的滋味,
手机总是拿在手里，
一遍又一遍地拨着那几个阿拉伯数字,
却永远没有勇气拨出去;

你知道不知道,思念一个人的滋味,
当电话响起时,总是会心慌意乱,
看见来电显示时,却是沉沉地失落.

你知道不知道,思念一个人的滋味,
总是呆坐在电脑前,对着屏幕发呆;
脑海里却想着,此时此刻的你,在哪里?在干什么?
是不是也感应到了这份思念?
是不是也会因有灵犀而会心神不安?

你知道不知道，追随一个人的滋味，
放下你所有的高傲，听风起舞，
看他静静地欣赏你，这就是你的快乐；

弃开你所有的成绩，随他远去，
既使是陌生也有勇气；

你知道不知道，追随一个人的滋味，
一个凝眸一个微笑一个轻吻，
便让你所有的付出都觉得无怨无悔……

你知不知道，思恋一个人的滋味，
是明明恋着他，却得装着若无其事；
他的微微一笑，拨动的是你的心弦；
分明没有语言，却仿佛看见满空飘飞着玫瑰的香味；
不希望天长地久，只是看他一眼，就象拥有了一世……
我爱你....为了你的幸福，我愿意放弃一切---包括你。


真的好想：
想要给你很多，虽然不是整个人的世界。
想要你幸福，虽然幸福只是在你我心间。
想要你天天有如花笑靥，虽然有时候是笑中有泪。
想牵着你的手去逛街，虽然那只是我们心目中的小幸福。
想抱着你入眠，虽然一辈子的时间不是很长。
想天天对你说‘我爱你’，虽然有天你会听烦。
想给你做一顿饭菜看着你全部吃光，虽然它的味道不是很好。
想带你上天台看星星，虽然有点老套。
想跟你过情人节，虽然不会每次都送你玫瑰。
想送你白玫瑰，虽然没有九百九十九朵。
想给你洗头发，虽然我洗得不是很干净。
想给你买衣服，虽然不会买太贵的。
想带你去旅游，虽然不会去很远的地方。
想你累的时候靠在我的肩膀上，虽然它并不是很宽阔。
想你在收拾家务的时候帮你一把，虽然有时候会帮倒忙。
想你生气的时候做你的出气筒，虽然我的脾气也很臭。
想时时刻刻和你在一起，虽然有时也会有点小冲突。
想要取你做老婆，虽然我不知道你到底会不会答应。
想和你生孩子，虽然知道带小孩很辛苦。
想了很多，最想和你过一辈子.