tabooooo...

in any relationships,
there are always things that should b avoided..
especially some old memories..
tat u once shared with those previous special ones..

i know us girls hate to know things bout those pasts..
things tat our guys once had with other girls..
things tat other girls can do better than us..
n we like to compare too..
i guess the kiasu-ness not just lies within singaporeans..
it lies within every girl too..
or in fact.. including the guys..

i know guys wont like to know much about those pasts too..
i know too, that wat is important is the future,
not the past..
but human beings are always sensitive..
or blame the low self esteem..

whatever it is,
from now on i need to stay focus..
target on things tat i wan,
throw away things tat i dun wan..
what she can do, or they can do,
im gona do it even better.
for im anything, but ordinary. =)






n im....








extremely kia-su....

homesick..

called up daddy just now..
i guess hes busy at work..
he asked me wats up..
n i said: nth, just wana hear ur voice.

n da whole morning i've been missing my didi.
n mommy =(

i wana go home.

=)

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

in da end it's still u,
who stay by my side,
b with me,
never abandon me,
n owex ter for me.
i heart u. so much.

m i greedy, not?

unofficial n official..
does status matter?
or it's the heart tat counts?

i <3 him

he says: u're owex my priority. =)

love

flied home for holidays.
two weeks.
n it ended just like that.
time flies,
n even faster when you feel happy.

i was quite sick during my 2nd week back home.
but i din hav any bits of regret for going back,
for i gained sth even more precious.

i spent time with my beloved frens.
i had quality time with my family, daddy mommy n didi..
n i even shared love with the man in my life =)

bie, sorry for havin doubts all these while..
sorry for not being strong throughout the journey,
n even tot of giving up n letting go..
sorry for hurting and disappointing u in the past..

the trip with you this time
makes me see things i never see before..
n feel you the way i never feel before..
now that i believe our love is strong..
i'll owex hold on n never wana let go.

i have faith in you,
i believe what we have will bring us through..
wait for me..
n i'll be back into your arms, again.

i love you. *muaks*

感动！！！

弟弟突然好有文采，
他说：

姐姐siao,
弟弟gila,
妈妈chi sin,
爸爸神经，
全家psycho..

wuahahahhahahah. i love my didi =P

你走得好快。。
我跟得好累。。

可不可以，
放慢你的脚步，
让我跟着你，
一起走？

。。。。

好想你。。
遥远的你，
看不到的你，
碰不到的你，
闻不到的你。。。

呼吸着回忆里的甜，
空气里缠绕着想念的痛。

抱着我们的爱，
眼里含着泪，
缓缓入眠。

真的想你，

你，

在哪里。。。。？

童话

小时候看童话故事
都觉得公主们很幸福。。
有王子的爱和呵护
羡慕童话故事里的生活，
像个白痴一样
以为总有一天，我也会有我的童话。

才刚发现，爱情，
不是我爱你，你爱我，
也不是你疼我我疼你就可以了。
里边还有包容，信任，宽容，忍耐，等。
还要沟通，
还有彼此差天差地的价值观，信仰，想法，等。
会不会在一起越久，
彼此的差距就越大？
所以才会像名言里所说的:
因了解而分开。

曾经以为再也不会爱上谁，
却还是遇见了触动心房的你。
但曾经的痛，我没忘记。
对于爱情，还是有着那份怀疑和胆怯。。
我害怕。真的怕。
害怕失去，害怕争吵，害怕伤害。。
从不怕事的我，变成这怕那怕。。

commitment，
当时你说不想要的东西。
我紧紧记住。
或许当时没有这样的压力，
跟你一起，很轻松。
你给的快乐，是最大的快乐。
慢慢的，压力来了。
拼命告诉自己不可能的，
也不想要这么快，
以为会失去的，不会是我的，
但无形中，变成是可以选择要还是不要的了。

我喜欢你，但是我更爱你。
只是迟迟做不出决定，
尤其是当发现种种种种过后，
我有我的恐惧。。。

如果明知道结局是失去。。。
会不会因为害怕失去的痛苦，
而选择停止付出。。。