等

2.09am...
我在等。。等你的回复。。。
睡不着。。
我想，今晚应该等不到吧。。。

变了，好像不一样了。。。
为什么不是期待的那样。。
原来一个人，那么可怕，

无止尽的等。。。。。。。。。。




更可怕。

爱

一开始还以为是你爱我多一点，但后来才发现我错了，

真正爱你多一点的人是我，你并没有骗我，

你是真的很爱我，因为你对我的爱从没变过，

只是我变得越来越爱你了，不敢想像没有你的关心，

我还有没有勇气面对一切，不敢想像没有你的包容，

我还能不能够那么地任性，不敢想像没有你的日子，

我一个人的日子该怎么过...



亲爱的，真的想要说句谢谢你，

因为无条件地对我那么好，让我可以那么任性，

也因为你无条件地包容我的任性，让我感动，

让我知道我应该珍惜...

我的爱情故事，离不开你，

或许我不是最爱你的人，

但我知道我会越来越爱你，

甚至爱你多过爱我自己...

fairytale..

for the first time in life i got so much love
n feel so touched deep inside.
roses, chocolates, candles, perfume, dinner, surprises,
ters nth i dun love.
most of all, i found the love of my life, my man =)
love u bie bie! muaks!
happy 2nd anniversary~

。。。

可不可以不要让我害怕。。。=(

you're better than the best

You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your life,
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Let me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile



dedicate this to my babie kevin =) i love u

finally..

终于坦白了。。
放在心里一年多了。。
不知怎么跟你说，如今说了，就再也没有什么瞒着你了。
我知道我不可能带着这个谎跟你走进教堂的，
骗不了你，也骗不了我自己，
从今以后，no more secrets between us.
=）谢谢你的爱与包容。n i love u too. now n eternity <3

回味

你我这样关系
也算一种默契
你不想聊的
我不会提
我不要给你有压力
只要你开心
偶尔一点小情绪
我自己抚平

i wish to know

i smell sth fishy..
i sense sth different..
i dun feel the same from you again..
it's not like what we've done or said before..
is it fading away..

...........

sorry..
i know i'm very hard to please..
distance is making our relationship even harder to survive..
i just hope tat we can make it through..

Speed writing exercise in class

Just some thoughts to be shared here. This piece of writting is taken from my weekly writing exercise in class. My lecturer Edwin will play a piece, or a few pieces of music and we have to write a piece of writing. No thinkings or talkings are allowed during that period of time. We are supposed to write about anything that comes to mind.

This week, we were asked to write about one of the sad moments in life. and this is what i've thought of. This is long, spare some time to read it, if you dun mind. I posted it here, because it is relevant to you people. People that i love. <3

Happy reading:

People experience different kinds of sad moments in lives, from the death of the closest ones, to the lose of education, being kicked out from school, not having enough to eat, etc.

Well for me, the most important thing is to know how to fall, and get up again. Not giving up your life is an important lesson to learn, yet, it always appears to be really difficult at times.

I guess one of my saddest moments was the few months after high-school. I have a gang of really close high school friends. I only get to know them when i moved to Kuala Lumpur from another state in Malaysia, that was when i was 16.

The time we spent together in high school was merely two years. It is definitely not a short period, but not too long either.

I remember vividly when we have all finished our final exam, and done with high school. During that period, due to some reasons, we seldom meet up again. Most of us were busy doing part-time jobs to fill up the three-month holidays before our result is released.

We were all too busy to keep in touch. And one night, i was sitting in my room alone, reading through the autograph book that i have, with writings and words from my fellow friends before we graduated from high school.

Reading through those words has caused so much pain as i feel like things were not the same anymore. I missed the moments we studied together, been to dancing classes, going to night market, wandering around at the basketball court, fooling with teachers and plenty of other memories. I feel that things have changed.

Then daddy walked into my room, seeing me crying. He asked why, and i told him what i felt. He said: "silly girl, people walk in and out. some might stay, some might not. You'll have to learn to let go." He hugged me in the arms, and gave me comfort.

What daddy said is true, but i'm glad that after the result is released, we've all stopped working and gone back to normal. We called each other out and have gatherings so often. Things have gone back to the beginning. We are close once again.

And it has been 4 years since we graduated from the high school. Eventhough i'm in Perth now, we still keep closely in touch. The day i left malaysia, i have all my closest ones at the airport to send me off. Once again it hurted me so much to have to leave my family and friends, but i know it's a process of growing up. Our friendship will always stay strong and that is my faith.

I'm really glad to have this group of friends, who give me comfort and shelter when i need them the most, to share my life's ups and downs throughout these 6 years. I am fully blessed and i hope we will all appreciate our friendship, and not giving up on each other under any circumstances.

Speaking about closeness, I'm really feeling it when i went back home for two weeks couples of months ago during the semester break. I always thought being outside, studying and living alone, is the best thing that could ever happen for me. I thought being independent is good, yet i ignore the fact of how much my family is needig me.

Going back this time i realise my importance. Dad and Mom have been missing me so much. And i got the return air-tickets as my birthday present for my 21st birthday. I guess they want to see me very much. This time, i spent lots of times with them. I drive my little bro to and back from school. I cooked for my family, watched television programmes with them, talked to them, etc. I might be a grown up now, but deep inside, i'm always still a little child to them. I love it when i get really close with my family, i feel like i'm the gem and always being well taken care of. Again, i know i'm deeply blessed for having such a lovely family. A father who is not strict at all and willing to share thoughts with me, a mother who is lovely with young and modern thinking, and most of all a brother who is ALREADY A GROWN UP but still lives like a baby.

I am a happy little girl, blessed with great family and friends. Some people might complain about their lives a lot. They are sad of the things that they don't have in life. For me, being happy is more than easy. "Appreciate" is all the it takes.

Learn to appreciate, and things will appear to be more beautiful. =) Try it.