i miss u.

again,
i miss the time of being purely happy.

maybe it's not that im not happy,
just that sth is missing again these days..

i miss the time we used to spend for each other.
i miss it. i miss u.

=)

Life is tiring.
yet, we have no choice but to continue walking.
like it or not, life goes on.

somewhere i belong

a lil bit depressed again.
mayb not to say depressed,
but.. a lil blue perhaps.

i know i will only hav few more months here,
then im off to australia.
i wish i can spend time with all of u,
since i hav never reli join u all for outings,
n yet, again, the same thing happen.

i've always struggled between church and frens.
not once or twice,
but countless times.
sumtimes i wish to just give up a lil time to church,
n spend it with my beloved frens,
but in da end i owex end up choosing church n not frens.
it's the responsibilities, n the guilt. i just cant.
im sorry.

n a lot of times when i struggle to choose..
in da end i choose sth out of responsibilities..
not necessarily sth tat i like.
not to say being forced,
it's more like i hav no other options.

i do hope to spend time with u all.
in fact, if it is one week earlier or later,
then definitely i'll b able to make it..
but, oh well. =( im sorry gals.

cold hard slap

i know i might b childish
but it reli slaps me hard on the face
i think it's time to wake up

i tot im the only one
until i realise im same like any other girls
it stabs right into my heart
n out of a sudden
i fall from heaven to hell

i tot that hurts
but this is even worse

u break my heart
tissues wont fix it

i thought u feel it too

y do i let myself believe miracles cud happen..
now i hav to pretend that i dun reli care.

白天不懂夜的黑

if ters nth missin in my life
y do these tears come at nite..

again

在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了 天晴朗了 我就走


你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛我的梦
在你的面前 我不必保留
还来不及对你说
迟到的我的心动


最后看你在别人怀里
还微笑祝福你....

my journey

it has been exactly 2 weeks since my 1st day of working.

din like it much.

not to say i hate it, either.

dad is right, i knew about all the consequences
of being involved in this industry
long before i decided to take this course.
Since i knew them,
i chose them,
now i have to accept and deal with them.

which equals to---
limited private and family life.

i knew it.

i tot i enjoy these kinda works.
in fact i do.
just tat i din tot i wud prefer to hav family time tat much, too.
n da fact tat i wish to spend time with my loved one..........
suddenly......
somehow makes the job becomes a burden to me..

years ago i've never planned to grow old with anyone,
except my immediate family, or perhaps a few frens..
marriage or even serious relationship never cross my mind..
until sometime in 07 when i realised i cud fall in luv so deeply
tat i wish i cud spend my life with sum1 i luv till da end of time.

well, tat wish with tat sum1 is already vanished,
since long ago i know.
but another unpredicted sum1 appeared...
surprised n shaken me..
n from ter my life is.............being intruded, again.

i know im a lil bit too much.
sudnt bother too much.
sudnt care too much.
after all, im no one.
we wont go on for long, i know.
n tat is also being the reason y i refuse to step further sumtimes...

for im still havin fear...deep inside...

or mayb im contented if we just stay here..
where we can owex reach out for each other,
anytime, anywhere..

lies

The top 3 lies that guys consistently tell and gals still, fall into:

3rd:

Gal: R u listening?
Guy: Yes of coz, im owex listenin to u.


2nd:

Gal: m i fat?
Guy: No dear, u look just nice.





and....





1st:

Gal: r u lying to me?
Guy: No sweetheart, i'll never lie to u. Im owex honest with u.

untitled.

once again baby,
wat makes u think u mean sth this time..
u just dont.