my journey

it has been exactly 2 weeks since my 1st day of working.

din like it much.

not to say i hate it, either.

dad is right, i knew about all the consequences
of being involved in this industry
long before i decided to take this course.
Since i knew them,
i chose them,
now i have to accept and deal with them.

which equals to---
limited private and family life.

i knew it.

i tot i enjoy these kinda works.
in fact i do.
just tat i din tot i wud prefer to hav family time tat much, too.
n da fact tat i wish to spend time with my loved one..........
suddenly......
somehow makes the job becomes a burden to me..

years ago i've never planned to grow old with anyone,
except my immediate family, or perhaps a few frens..
marriage or even serious relationship never cross my mind..
until sometime in 07 when i realised i cud fall in luv so deeply
tat i wish i cud spend my life with sum1 i luv till da end of time.

well, tat wish with tat sum1 is already vanished,
since long ago i know.
but another unpredicted sum1 appeared...
surprised n shaken me..
n from ter my life is.............being intruded, again.

i know im a lil bit too much.
sudnt bother too much.
sudnt care too much.
after all, im no one.
we wont go on for long, i know.
n tat is also being the reason y i refuse to step further sumtimes...

for im still havin fear...deep inside...

or mayb im contented if we just stay here..
where we can owex reach out for each other,
anytime, anywhere..